Rewind...

Each and every year passes by with a lot of memories and these are created by people around us... It can be friends, well wishers, family or enemies...but each of them leave a mark, a mark in our lives, some memorable, some deplorable, some distinctively hurting and some deeply moving..

What do we thank for every year...good health, good friends, fantastic job, or a good soul mate??

Who do we thank each year... God , Family, Friends or enemies??

Well who do I thank... Each and every person mentioned above...

Simply because each day has been a journey; over the seas. .. Fighting tears and going through every emotion possible maybe for the wrong things now but for the so right things then... Then getting your life back on track by receiving the bundle of dark and venomous lies disguised as a bundle of joy only to see yourself fall  right back from where you had started...But oh yes, the journey continued, and what has it resulted in? 

It has made me stronger, strong enough to fight back with prayers and a great friend by my side...

It is very surprising how life just keeps pushing you forward and helps you forget the past ... How the strong word love brings about a hurricane of joy and happiness which actually makes you realise the joy of all the sufferings and pain and that it was actually worthwhile to go through all of that to get this bounty of joy now..

So how has the year been for me? U.N.B.E.L.I.V.E.A.B.L.E  and evermore simply  F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C...

Relationship...

An invisible bond which defines everything, what you are for someone and what you can be for anyone. It is that invisible thread which changes everything , the moment you acknowledge someone’s presence in your life.

Mysterious as it seems, it is one of the most beautiful things ever. Its funny how knowing a person for eight years makes you realise that you don’t know the person anymore in a matter of minutes...and  how knowing a person for less than a year can make you build a relationship which could possibly last forever. But the possibility of the term “forever “, well it is not in my dictionary, the term does not suit  relationships because defining a relationship forever is an understatement, simply because it cannot be defined. What it is for you and me may not be for someone else, what you feel for someone may not be the way the same person feels for you. To be in a relationship forever is a blessing, a feat which only few in their lifetime achieve.

A relationship is not defined and created by some heavenly force, rather it is build here on earth by us. It is a choice that we make ...a gift given ...yet unseen...

Questions...

The answers to all your questions begins with a doubt and then a persistent search for the truth followed by a whole hearted acceptance of why the question was asked in the first place, followed by head banging on the wall as to what were you thinking when you decided to search for the answers to all those random questions.

Well confusion leads to questions which results in the so called search for answers, and well in some cases , let’s not be rude in “all cases”, this leads to more irrelevant questions which leads to even more irrelevant answers. So in the end you have a mixed bowl of confusion, with some questions and answers as fickle as mustard seeds garnished on top.

Then again the question arises, why ask questions when seeking answers would lead to more confusion. Well sad to say, the heart never stops asking, and the mind gives away to the wails of the heart, adamant bastard he is. So this would result in you ending up being messed in questions and then trying to console the poor wailing heart and mind.

Some doubts are good, it has resulted in the overall development of the human race, let’s say that the search for truth led to the rise of a great religion, Buddhism. Now that ain’t that bad, when you look at it in that perspective. Enlightenment was a result of a question, and  it was because of the search of that answer that we had the great enlightenment of Gautam Buddha and the subsequent birth of the religion.

Well I think my search for answers will end up under a tree like Gautam Buddha or I would up end like Newton finding gravity if the apple wished to honour me with its presence.

Emotions

I really wish we were born without them.

When you know it’s pointless to ponder over something that can never be part of your life and still think about it day and night, that’s when you really wonder why were you born with emotions...

“You never learn from your mistakes, take the liberty to crash land right into it whenever you feel so.”

“Would you prefer emotions with a pinch of lemon and salt or do you want it hands down, rock hard..dry? ”.. My heart said “Dry!” .. “Alright...then add some sugar and spice and everything that’s nice, and if you could, add a dash of lemon and see how lovely it is.” “Believe me ..Pathetic!” I told my heart  two days later, “You have a bad taste, a glass of wine and a smoke will get you back to your senses, and that’s exactly what you need...”

“Learn from your mistakes, take the liberty to walk down the glass stairs and please if you crash land, do so safely because no one would be there to pick up the broken pieces.. it would be just you and only you..”

Love What You Do...

Start loving what you are doing in life..

It’s actually a good rule, but what if, what if what if.. ( I stress and emphasise on “what if” because in this context and as you read ahead this phrase is very important) ...the thing that you are doing in life like a job is not what is going to give you lifelong satisfaction or happiness for the rest of your life, so then the question would be ; Would you still continue to ignore this fact of complete non-satisfaction and keep pretending to love the thing that you are doing and completely forget what you actually want to do in life???   

                                                                                                                                                   Well technically speaking it would actually make you look insane or anyone would rather consider you insane.

Well a friend of mine told me why he was not doing what he was really good at . According to him “Well you don’t pursue your hobby because it wouldn’t be your hobby anymore and your pretty much not sure whether you would still love doing it with the same amount of passion and satisfaction if you took it up as a full time job and I don’t think I will be making the bucks out of it.” Hmmmm...So we work for bucks and not for the satisfaction???

Well what if you start doing something and half way through you realise that this is not what you want to do for the rest of your life, then what do you do? Do you wait till the end or do you just leave halfway and follow what you want.

I will add another twist, what if you realise that what your doing is not what you want to do, and you are pretty sure that ,that’s not what you want to do for the rest of your life, and you are also not sure what else you would do if not the other job...then?..then my friends what do you do...do you still run away from it or would you rather wait till the end  for some kind of divine intervention; like a voice from above, or some holy light to tell you that “Dude just run..”??

It may just sound crazy, wait not to wait, run not to run....I am reminded of Kung Fu panda when I write this , “quit don’t quit..noodles no noodles........yesterday is history ..tomorrow is a mystery...Today is a gift tats why it’s called present”..Trust Faith and Greatness ...”Trust in yourself only then will you have Faith in the future and become the root of Greatness” well  this line seems kinda apt...trust , faith or what we commonly call as belief. Belief in Yourself.

Well to that belief I add time, taking time to realise what you actually want to do in life, that is if we have the luxury of doing so, because it would be no fun ...down the lane, 10years later, you end up being all depressed, sad and in a mess because you didn’t do what you wanted to do, what your heart told you to do..because then it would be just too late...too late to follow your heart...to follow what you really wanted in life...because then if you needed to take a step you would have to think about a lot of people whose life depended upon your decision...

So , You still sure about what you are doing?

White sand....



White sand ...sea shells and the foam of the deep blue sea...beauty at its best or the creator at its best!

It’s kind of astonishing or rather it’s amazing how nature just surprises me or leaves me completely amazed all over again,  a wave seeping in between my feet and taking back with it not just sand , but pain, feelings, emotions...

The most mesmerising thing is how nature communicates by just being itself...it doesn’t pretend to be someone else...a complete stranger ...how it can calm the most troubled hearts with just a breeze..how an amazing walk on a white sandy beach with the sun gleaming over a deep blue sea can just transform you completely ...set you thinking ..and can  simply leave a smile on your face...

Born to be Free....

Walk by society norms...You are a woman that’s what’s expected of you...She did that? How could she...isn’t she bringing disrespect upon her family...you are a woman and that’s how you should be.....

It sounds rather funny to me that people who tell you to follow your dreams are the ones who pull you down the most...Is a human being bound by people around her..Let’s say her family...more specifically her parents....her uncle...her aunt...her cousin...her grandaunt...her cousins dog’s ...her cousin’s cousin’s dogs...her neighbours...neighbour’s dogs....it would sound rather ridiculous...and believe me it is...but not when you actually hear it...

Is it written under any law or in any book that a girl should get married before she is 25 and that if she marries when she is 30..she has committed a crime..Or if she has not married at all...she is psychopath or a loser or a woman with attitude?????

I believe if she doesn’t marry she is doing no harm to anyone, rather she is not spoiling a person’s life by entering into a commitment and spending a life of complete unsatisfaction and misery ahead.

I sometimes wonder aren’t we just too tied up or bothered about what society says or just too scared to voice out our own feelings and thoughts...do we just go on saying yes to everything to what society says is right...have we forgot the fact that whatever society says is not law..It’s a question that always keeps popping in my head, who are we bound to listen to...who are we accountable to... when does a woman actually feel free, unchained and unbound...does she ever feel or enjoy this freedom during her lifetime...when can she actually do something absolutely crazy and not feel accountable or responsible for it to anyone..

When will she be free...

A bird won’t learn how to fly if she is put in a cage...you have to let go of her at some point of time...understand her...feel her...she has dreams...she is different...she is not like every other bird you see....she is unique ..One in a billion....

She is meant to be different...She is meant to be free....