Do You Believe In Fairies...



Have you ever  believed in fairies’???..or Santa Claus....????? Have you ever believed in pixies or magical mushrooms....or pixie dust and goblins????

Have you ever believed in magic????

I still remember  I was  four...and it was Christmas Night....my dad waking me up and telling me that Santa had left me presents....and me and my sister running to our Christmas tree....and seeing presents lying below the tree...and I indeed believed that Santa had left them for me.  Over the years  I wrote letters to Santa...left it on the Christmas tree....sometimes writing stuff like...I was a good girl this year....and that I don’t want anything for Christmas except for my family and I want my daddy to be there with me always.....

But when I realised that there was no  such thing as Santa Claus...at that very moment I  think I grew up...I stopped believing in magic and fairies and reindeers ....but whenever I  read an Enid Blyton book...I could never stop myself from  imagining pixie cottages surrounded by honeysuckle and primroses and  talking yellow canaries and wizards and gnomes...because somewhere within I just never wanted to grow up.....

I think telling a child that angels or fairies  don’t exist is like telling him that he has no imagination....I sometimes wonder why are children trying to grow up so fast....why are they losing their  childish instincts. Children are the most beautiful creatures on earth....they can believe in magic or angels, they can smile in the most beautiful way that can make all your sadness just go away....their innocence can make you wonder what  have we become...

I think I ought to thank my parents who never stopped me from imagining and believing in beautiful things like fairy tales and magic...who brought me all these wonderful books...and taught me the spirit of  Christmas and how even if your 21 , and you’re stuck in some subway...or even if you’re in some investment bank running figures on futures, options or swaps...you can still imagine the most beautiful things and you can never stop the child within you from  imagining and most importantly believing in magic ......

Can we walk through Life alone....

Can we walk through life alone...without love, care and company...

Is it necessary to be in love to understand love...Could life have been very different if we never existed..or if people  who we thought were important to us ,never existed...Is love suffering...Is hatred and non forgiveness the key to keep away the waves and pains of love ...Does solitude define why we exist without any reason ... Belief or Faith are they one and the same...What is faith...What is truth...What is passion...Is it just words to stir the utmost unconscious minds of a human being or is there some truth or some underlying value and meaning to these words....

When walking through the woods today..my mind was full of questions such as these....a wise friend told me...that thoughts could be dangerous...and this set me thinking...am I isolating myself from the rest of the world because of my thoughts...am I thinking too much..thinking far away from reality and making life way too complicated..

I thought the best way to answer them was by just not facing them at the moment....as I walked further down...i came to a halt...because the paths ahead were two..and since both looked  quite travelled..i didn’t know which one to take...I smiled to myself and said “Like the poets say lets take the one less travelled”...

As I kept walking, the forest ahead grew more unfamiliar but  something  within me just kept me walking...the paths were rough...woods fallen....no one ahead and no sign of any habitation... I turned up the volume and switched to a track which I loved hearing...The tune of Forgiven by Stephen Devassy set the perfect mood...and all the unfamiliarity around me just dissolved into this perfect ambience and beautiful weather...

As i walked back..I sat across a wild stretch of field...the next track on my playlist...actually made me smile...”Thy word is a lamp onto my feet.....when I feel afraid and think I’ve lost my way..still you’r there right beside me...” It kinda set me thinking  again...and the blowing wind felt as if it was consoling me....and I realised that in life sometimes the answers to all questions are not to be searched but they are to be revealed at the right time...sometimes we need not go in search of answers  sometimes the answers may just come to us.....”

Peace and tranquillity at times may just come to us....when we least expect it...when we are unsure....and when we think that we have lost everything....but then it takes just a walk through a lonely untrodden path to find out..that peace is around you...and it comes to you when you least expect it....



Are we bound and blinded by religion?

We normally hear the word religion almost like everyday in our life, our life runs by this very word, in fact our very existence seems to be because of it...but are we confined to the word religion?? Is our freedom of thought, act or speech bound or restricted by religion???      

Religion by and far is defined or has been defined as a set of beliefs that one follows, ones faith in the supernatural or divine unexplained forces, but is a religion followed under pure freedom or is it because of the fear of isolation ,still remains the big question.

But to answer this would be like to question the practises put forward and followed by our ancestors, their thoughts, their religious beliefs which has been passed on from generation to generation, and if anyone does...it would be considered blasphemy...but the necessity to question arises  because we have become dependent on religion..we try to find reasons for our wrong doings from  religion , and give vague answers that our misdeeds would be forgiven...but isn’t this like testing God’s patience over and over again...and covering up our faults and shoving them under the carpet called religion?

Religion has blinded us from being human..it has made us forget our humane side, in the name of religion people kill, in the name of religion they commit horrendous acts and seek all sought of justifications, in the name of religion people forget to love and in all this we forget it is us, we humans who created religion ...

Losing love, fearing to love only because you  belong to a certain religion ,caste or creed doesn’t make sense....because to love the only thing needed is a loving heart...and to be morally right and to do what is right we don’t need to be religious...the only thing needed is a pure heart.....A world without religion, without fear of losing someone to the name of religion is a world we can only dream about but its not a dream that is impossible .....

what is love???

Love is divine  love is pure ..some say love has no boundaries or restrictions..love has no religion or face..it depends upon how we look at it...some say  love hurts ..love is the ultimate blunder  a wise man can ever commit, But a wise friend of mine gave me the ultimate answer to the question  why love hurts...”love hurts because ..we look at it from our point of view , we keep our expectations up high and fail to see things from the other person’s  point of view.” Hmmmm..definitely interesting.............but that still doesn’t explain what is love??

Is it that gut feeling a guy gets when he sees a dame walking by..but wait wouldn’t you call that i don’t know an instantaneous reaction that most men get when they see any hot chick? Or is that feeling that a girl or a guy gets when they see each other for the first time and deep within their hearts they just know that they are meant to be together?? Well thats something to think about..

“ A girl would never reveal her true feelings, her love for you, she would be that silent listener, that silent onlooker..looking at you with all the love that she has for you, but she would never tell  what she really feels for you.....”

“Loving you has been the only thing that i have known, loving you has been the only thing i have done..and i wish to love you for ever more”

Quotes like this definitely sound crazy, can it be humanely possible to write something like that..well it is possible, it is possible for a person who has really been in love...and i know the person who wrote this was truly madly deeply in love...

Well reading so far you might just say, this is just one side of love, what about mother’s love? Isn’t that important...Well yes, definitely yes, the love that you get from your family , friends are very important and it is defined, we understand it , we know the limitations and we can explain it ..but the love that you get from that one very special person, who just lightens up your life..who means the world to you..who sets your heart racing..and makes you feel special in every way...without whom you feel absolutely incomplete...what about that kind of love?? can it be explained in words, phrases...????

Well as i said earlier..some questions are better left unanswered.........

Does loneliness kill???

Some say its a great opportunity to be alone, it gives you the time to think, do a bit of soul searching and maybe decide a few things for yourself... But doesn't loneliness ever kill..??.Doesn't it kill your very existence??...Are we actually alive because of our family, friends and our social circle..??

Well this question has been in my mind for a few days, an unanswered question burning within...
Well a week to my self gave me the opportunity to try answering them...


Loneliness can kill you day by day, inch by inch..but then a point of time comes that you become so accustomed to the silence, the deadly silence..that it becomes rather odd to hear a human voice again.
I'm reminded of a story that i had read a while back "The Bet", about a young man who decided to live a solitary life just in order to win a bet, and that to not for a week but for 15years, while reading the story then, it did leave  me with a lot of questions definitely unanswered, and the same questions are repeating itself today but in a very different context, do we actually need  friends , family or a social life to survive?? does our very existence revolve around them??


The funny part is I haven't been able to find answers to these questions...I think its best to say that some questions are better left unanswered.......